Thank you for your response. It makes absolute sense. I feel as if I am on some kind of journey. In the beginning I kept asking myself - why is this happening to me? I can answer that question now because I have learned leaps and bounds since his illness. My eyes are no longer in the dark. I'm not walking around asleep. I feel I am a chosen one who is allowed to see what is going on, especially since my family and friends think I am nuts.
I will seek out a priest for his advice/wisdom and continue my direction/path for inner peace.